Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Growing younger

Being the ARR fan that I am, when Ranjani had made a post about Rahman's interview (http://tharkuri.wordpress.com/2012/12/04/ella-pugazhum-iraivanukke/), I was immediately interested in it. Somewhere in the video, he says that he feels younger now than when he was actually young. And that made a connect with me. Made my eyes go wide. Because that's exactly how I feel now too. The years in college in a course that I was least interested in (which I found out only after the first year) and then the passing of my father really had sucked the life out of me.
The knife of passing Engineering and earning for the family hung over my head and the impending doom if I didn't was too much to bear. Although I was strong enough to not go into depression, it wasn't easy either.
I wasn't an introvert but thanks to my conservative upbringing, I had never really enjoyed myself, in hindsight. The few things that gave me joy were a few of my friends and technology. I didn't realize then what I was losing out on.
This may sound cheesy but it is true -In the past couple of years, I've come to realize the petty joys of youth and feel younger now than in the last few years. Perhaps the reason that I find myself in the company of more and more people who are much younger than I am than people of my own age. Earning gives you that independence, the freedom to do things that you always wanted to without being naive or overtly irresponsible. Although I have my sweet memories and nostalgia, I love the present and feel this is the best part of my life and there is so much ahead of me to experience and achieve.
Do you feel the same way? Is there are period in your life that you enjoy(ed) the most? Comment and let me know.